Procrastinate: to defer action
I am the worlds worst at putting things off! I am trying to get better but what ends up happening is I say 5 more minutes and that turns into 20 and so on. Then it repeats a horrible cycle in my life. I get mad at myself at night for not doing the things I wanted (or needed) to do during the day and then I take it out on the ones closest to me.
Then I spiral into a fit of depression and shut myself off from the world.
I recently have gone through this. But I refuse to do this anymore! Not only am I suffering but my family and friends suffer as well. I seem to others as nothing is wrong but deep inside it hurts. I know the Lord is doing some serious work on my heart from my past transgressions and I need to quit letting the enemy take hold.
When I get like this I always hear in my head "well she really isn't your friend" or "She is only nice to you to your face, she really talks about you behind your back." Which are more insecurities I face daily. But I know those are lies from the enemy! I refuse to let him have anymore ground in my life.
So I thought I would post Goals to accomplish.
Today: I will clean my entire house and Car.
Tonight I start a bible study which I believe will help A LOT.
1 Week: I want to have kept my house clean every day.
Spend quiet time with the Lord every morning.
I will have read 6 Chapters in my History book and 12 essays.
I will have completed my first assignment in History this Thursday when it opens up.
1 Month: Budget for house.
Chore Chart for kids.
Monthly Activities planned out for June.
Checkbook balanced.
House completely organized.
I know these are simple things for most but I am trying to get out of the habit of when I clean it has to be PERFECT (which exhausts me when I finish) to the house needs to be clean and picked up. Lets face it I have 2 kids and 1 on the way and a husband that works 60-70 hours a week. So I am the only one (sick or healthy) to clean this mess up. I will have it set up where the kids will have responsibilities according to their ages but its my sole responsibility and I need to step up to the plate!
First Step: Rely on God fully and He will sustain me.
Psalm 54:4
Surely God is my help; the Lord is the one who sustains me.
~Stormy Johnson~
I am the worlds worst at putting things off! I am trying to get better but what ends up happening is I say 5 more minutes and that turns into 20 and so on. Then it repeats a horrible cycle in my life. I get mad at myself at night for not doing the things I wanted (or needed) to do during the day and then I take it out on the ones closest to me.
Then I spiral into a fit of depression and shut myself off from the world.
I recently have gone through this. But I refuse to do this anymore! Not only am I suffering but my family and friends suffer as well. I seem to others as nothing is wrong but deep inside it hurts. I know the Lord is doing some serious work on my heart from my past transgressions and I need to quit letting the enemy take hold.
When I get like this I always hear in my head "well she really isn't your friend" or "She is only nice to you to your face, she really talks about you behind your back." Which are more insecurities I face daily. But I know those are lies from the enemy! I refuse to let him have anymore ground in my life.
So I thought I would post Goals to accomplish.
Today: I will clean my entire house and Car.
Tonight I start a bible study which I believe will help A LOT.
1 Week: I want to have kept my house clean every day.
Spend quiet time with the Lord every morning.
I will have read 6 Chapters in my History book and 12 essays.
I will have completed my first assignment in History this Thursday when it opens up.
1 Month: Budget for house.
Chore Chart for kids.
Monthly Activities planned out for June.
Checkbook balanced.
House completely organized.
I know these are simple things for most but I am trying to get out of the habit of when I clean it has to be PERFECT (which exhausts me when I finish) to the house needs to be clean and picked up. Lets face it I have 2 kids and 1 on the way and a husband that works 60-70 hours a week. So I am the only one (sick or healthy) to clean this mess up. I will have it set up where the kids will have responsibilities according to their ages but its my sole responsibility and I need to step up to the plate!
First Step: Rely on God fully and He will sustain me.
Psalm 54:4
Surely God is my help; the Lord is the one who sustains me.
~Stormy Johnson~
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